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reading some correspondence that was left open on a
laptop—while I was sitting in a room with the two people,
my partner at the time and my best friend at the time. I was
reading quite a salacious correspondence while I was
sitting having coffee with these people. I very distinctly
remember how I felt at that moment. I went into a state of
paralysis: did not immediately erupt, did not let them know
that I knew. Like a deer in the headlights, I was facing it
straight on, but it also gave me a power in that moment,
because I knew something that they were trying to keep
from me. But I knew it, and they didn’t know that I knew it.
That was an interesting emotion.
“I took a similar path that the character Daniel [played by
Seth Gamble] takes: When you find out that a bomb has
gone off, you want to understand the scope. I tried to find
out every thing that had been happening under my nose.
This made me mad. The more you open Pandora’s box,
the more you learn the details, emotions like jealousy and
resentment creep up, and the more those emotions start to
take over, the impact can lead you to do things you would
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