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“I don’t regret doing porn—not for one single second.”
Zarah continued, “The streets made me in the sense that it made me a strong woman who got through any situation. I got guns pulled to my head. I’ve been beat up and had the man I thought I loved [leave me] bleeding on the driveway. My family said it was my fault. I grew up with horrible morals from the streets that taught me to steal and think it was OK.
“The people around me started dying. Young kids. The streets were no longer family to me, and when I turned 18 I decided to get out. This was after six different high schools and a TTI Wilderness. When I hit 19 I didn’t even know what an addict was. I thought it was normal. I Googled detox rehab. I hit rock bottom. A woman there, named Angel, explained and guided me through things. She said, ‘The best revenge is living a well-lived life.’ Those words stuck with me. She taught me meditation. She educated me on what an addict was, and how my life was by no means normal. I was sober for eight months.”
She was still stuck in Duarte, but pushed to stay sober even though she still lived in a household with substances and alcohol. And in the meantime, she discovered making money on the web. “My friend Kayla retweeted me to 3K in followers on Twitter, and the first day I made $80 and felt like the richest motherfucker alive. I quit working a burger place to make money doing this. Some days I made $600 to $1,700, some days $200, some days nothing—and I would cry.
“I found a modeling manager, but after two years and him taking half of whatever I earned, he finally told me that I wasn’t white enough or tall enough to get in a magazine. I felt I was being scammed. I had to move out and work ‘poker games’ every night where I prostituted myself. I was so insecure.
“I attempted suicide.”
Her mom came and got her from the hospital and she went to get help. “I was lost,” Zarah admitted. “I’m in sober living for seven months. Heartbroken. No one in my life—just a stupid laptop and OnlyFans.”
Things finally changed when agent Matt Morgia from COA (City of Angels) modeling agency DM’d Zarah about doing adult videos.
“I didn’t respond for a month,” she said. “I told my friends of his offer. Most everyone said no. Actually, everyone said no. Even my sponsor dropped me for wanting to do porn.”
But Morgia offered her a place to live—at his model house. She accepted his offer.
Zarah’s first video turned into a three-time repeat appearance for Net Video Girls. And she was a hit. The same day that debut scene came out, it got over 1 million views. It is currently around 25 million.
She was finally accepted.
“The industry loved me and I loved it,” she gushed. “They didn’t care about my skin color. They loved my curves, my natural body. This was the first time I truly loved myself.”
Of that very first shooting experience, she revealed, “I was extremely nervous, but the second the camera starting rolling, I got to be someone else. I was comfortable. I switched to a persona I could use.”
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