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≠ STORY: DAN MILLER
≠ PHOTOGRAPHY: COURTESY OF VIOLET DOLL
Violet Doll enjoyed yet another productive year of creating content in 2020 while at
the same time deciding to make her mental health top priority.
The reigning, Fan-Voted AVN Award-winning Favorite Domme from Detroit says she
has learned that mental health is “an important thing to talk about.”
“I’ve never really been good at faking it,” Doll tells AVN. “If things got real, I would be
open and honest. In this industry we sell a fantasy. So it’s not always great for business
to talk about some of the more personal things in your life because customers want a
fantasy. But that doesn’t always work when you’re struggling.”
Doll continues, “This pandemic is trauma on its own. We’re being massively traumatized
by what’s going on. Not everyone is going to end up with PTSD, but I can’t pretend
anymore. I need to be honest with my own personal struggle.
“Maybe it would be better for business to keep faking it, but I keep feeling like I have
an ethical duty at this point. I’ve reached a certain level in my career where it’s not going
to hurt me as much as it’s going to hurt someone else. It takes talking about things
to remove that stigma. And if I’m in a position to talk about it, I need to talk about it.”
Violet says she and her best friend, fellow adult creator Breton MacQueen, were at a
shopping mall where a shooting occurred in January 2020. The incident affected her
more than she realized at the time.
“I felt OK for probably five days or so and then all of a sudden I wasn’t OK,” Doll says.
“I knew I had to go speak to a professional. I had PTSD and the shooting brought up
a bunch of old trauma.”
Doll in February started attending weekly Behavior Therapy sessions to address how
she was feeling.
“I thought I could work through it. I thought I could be back to myself quicker, but it
took accepting that I need to slow down. Being a workaholic and a perfectionist was
kind of avoidance on my part,” Violet continues.
“This year has been rough for everyone. Most people are struggling with the pandemic.
That’s why I’ve tried to be more open about this. I feel like pretending everything is
perfect just isn’t the right choice for me.
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